Launch Day

So I’ve decided I’m not going to ChatGPT this or overly perfect this grammatically — maybe my subsequent ones but not this one. This is real, raw emotion. I love to write — it’s how I express best. And I actually write really well but these days I can’t be bothered to piece my words together as beautifully as I used to so I just literally dump my thoughts — no cohesion, no structure so pardon me or don’t.

I can’t believe this is happening. Like I wasn’t delusional and it is actually a thing. But I mean maybe I can’t say that just yet because what if the real delusion is not me thinking I can birth my childhood dream but me thinking anyone would care or like what I create enough to spend their money on it? Anyway, as I was saying, this is soooo wild to me. I’ve gone through every possible mental cycle that there is because of KÏKA SÏLZA. She’s made me aware of fears I didn’t know I had, made me aware of how self-sabotaging I can be, made me aware of how badly I take criticism sometimes. She’s shown me that my perfectionism is rather egregious and my indecisiveness is the reason I say I don’t have a favourite food. She has stripped me naked — in front of myself and forced me to look. No turning away, no bowing down of heads, no awkwardly laughing my way through it — she’s made me stand face to face with myself in a way nothing else has and I don’t even know if I’m fully grateful lol. I’m also ashamed because at my age?? Anyway, the woman she has made and is making is who I looked up to when I was little. It’s unbelievable who I’ve become. Can’t even get into it fully because that would be me giving you guys all the gist at once and that’s no fun…what would be left to write? Anyway head to my Instagram or stay tuned to my Instagram @karleegenfi for my gratitude to the real and ONLY star of the show — MY-EVER FAITHFUL FATHER, THE ONE WHO DOES NOT LIE, THE ONE WHO BREAKS PROTOCOL ON MY BEHALF, HE WHO IS ABLE TO DO EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY MORE THAN I COULD EVER ASK, THINK OR IMAGINE…I could go on and on and it still would never fully capture what God has done and continues to do in my life. I deserve not an ounce of it but I’m eternally grateful for all of it.

Alright, I’m off and I promise that every thing I write after this will be exactly how I appear — put together and wise. But for now take this and be good to people. Bye! xo

All my love, 

Karlee-Rose 

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